Tag Archives: pain

To Believe…

i was once there
i used to believe
if i would just fall
then id soon be free

if i could just wait
then you would soon see
the wonderful things
inside of me

i waited and felt
i tried to be free
but then you were him
and wouldnt believe

so i grew and i cried
i felt so ashamed
i had to grow up
and be my own name

i grew up and flourished
i was always the one
but in your minds eye
i was just for fun

now that its over
it still hurts inside
but i take each day
in great big strides

but then i met her
and she crys as i cried
and feels inside
as she might die

because in her heart
she craves to be free
she was hoping that he
would soon believe

i give her my shoulder
my words dont make sense
in her opinion
these words are too dense

one day she will see
she will fall and be free
if only she'd learned
in herself to believe.

Posted by on June 29, 2011 in dating, Dreams, my soul mate


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For Once In My Life…

For once in my life
I’m without words
This blank page of paper
Looks so absurd

How can someone take
Such an immense role
To enter my life
And reign control

To tear down the walls
Windows shudder within
A tornado an earthquake
A home filledwith pain

This storm shall soon pass
But I fear for it’s peak
Only 7 more days
Only 1 more week.



Posted by on July 26, 2010 in Uncategorized


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I’m Doing To You…

I’m doing to you
What he did to me
Reversing the rolls
I cannot see.

The pain you feel
It looks like yearning
But your heart it aches
Your heart is burning.

I’ve been there before
I know your pain
I know how it feels
I’ve felt the same.

But still I play
I’m the cat your the mouse
I chase you up walls
All over the house.

Of mice and men
From venus to mars
Chasing you as always
My heart has no bars.

Rules and regulations
You ask me to stay
The second you do
is the second I stray.

I know it’s not you
Your an amazing guy
But when you are mine
I have a roaming eye.

How can someone
Not perfect for me
Be perfect for her
And this I can’t see.


Posted by on June 3, 2010 in Uncategorized


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Darkest Day

Writen by my ex-husband… reflecting on his mother’s death.

You lifeless and still,
Twas spring but felt like winter
Gone – on your way home.

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Posted by on May 26, 2010 in Uncategorized


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You call out my name
I pretend not to hear you
I know when I turn around
You will be a ghost
You call again…
I play coy
I know you
I know us
You call again…
my heart strains to ignore you
I won’t listen
I won’t listen
You call again…
I turn smiling
heart and soul and wounds open to you
you are a ghost.
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Posted by on May 23, 2010 in Uncategorized


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I Wanted A Rose… (Haikus & Poetry)

I wanted a rose
There was only a daisy
So I closed my eyes

Can’t control my love
A frog leaps from my hands
My heart leaps for you

Dirty hands & dirty feet
Dirty minds & dirty speak
Brings me to my knees

Float into my life
Tides are ebbing back & forth
I motion for you

Mud soils ground beneath
Be submerged_be under me
You are worlds away

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Posted by on May 19, 2010 in Uncategorized


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