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To Believe…

i was once there
i used to believe
if i would just fall
then id soon be free

if i could just wait
then you would soon see
the wonderful things
inside of me

i waited and felt
i tried to be free
but then you were him
and wouldnt believe

so i grew and i cried
i felt so ashamed
i had to grow up
and be my own name

i grew up and flourished
i was always the one
but in your minds eye
i was just for fun

now that its over
it still hurts inside
but i take each day
in great big strides

but then i met her
and she crys as i cried
and feels inside
as she might die

because in her heart
she craves to be free
she was hoping that he
would soon believe

i give her my shoulder
my words dont make sense
in her opinion
these words are too dense

one day she will see
she will fall and be free
if only she'd learned
in herself to believe.

Posted by on June 29, 2011 in dating, Dreams, my soul mate


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When You Realize Life’s Over…

When you realize life’s over
That you made a mistake
No heros will save you
sometimes its to late

Will you stress and analyze
Mistakes that were made
Or finally think positive
As they open your grave?



Posted by on July 30, 2010 in Uncategorized


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I Tried Not To Tell You…

I tried not to tell you
To hold it inside
I tried not to tell you
Just sit alone and cry.

I tried not to tell you
But I loved you so much
I tried not to tell you
And now I’m just crushed.

I tried not to tell you
As we sit and we joke
I tried not to tell you
As you throw me the rope.

I tried not to tell you
As I told you goodbye
I tried not to tell you
I sit alone and cry.



Posted by on July 7, 2010 in Uncategorized


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Eyes Closed…


Eyes closed
There you are
Eyes open
Where did you go
Eyes closed
You smile at me
Eyes open
The room is empty
Eyes closed
You reach out toward me
Eyes open
People filing in
Eyes closed
We are alone now
Eyes open
They are walking toward you
Eyes closed
I can hear you whisper
Eyes open
They whisper prayers
Eyes closed
You put your arms around me
Eyes open
They offer condolences
Eyes closed
Hold me forever
Eyes open
Let me go…


Posted by on June 9, 2010 in Uncategorized


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You Don’t Get To Leave Me…

You don’t get to leave me
You never said goodbye
You don’t get to leave me
You don’t get to die.


Posted by on June 5, 2010 in Uncategorized


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Darkest Day

Writen by my ex-husband… reflecting on his mother’s death.

You lifeless and still,
Twas spring but felt like winter
Gone – on your way home.

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Posted by on May 26, 2010 in Uncategorized


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Haikus For Yous…

Ok I know I have had a few man hating poems lately and although I wrote a few like that I don’t want to overwhelm you and make you think I’m completely bitter. I’m not I promise.

I was telling my friend the other day that I’m like a bagel. I have this tough exterior and a great personality and people think that I can handle anything. I believe this leads people to be a little less tender with my feelings.

The thing you have to remember about a bagel is that it has a soft interior. It really isn’t all balls to the wall tough guy.

My friends response, “I like bagel.”

So some bagels; I mean haikus…

Perched upon the ledge
Instinct kicks in _ fall, float, land
Moments that change us.

Walking in the rain
Wandering thoughts make me cry
Happy or sad tears.

I tend the flower
Do all the right things _ alas
Flowers wilt and die.

Wrapped up in barbed wire
No matter which way I move
I always get hurt.

Past the cloud cover
Sunshine on the horizon
Walking towards the light.

Ok so maybe these aren’t the most uplifting haikus ever… but it’s where I’m at.


Posted by on May 25, 2010 in Uncategorized


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Haiku_God Bless You

Nothing religious about these…

Just my attempt at Haikus…

Comments always welcome…

Embrace in the night
All my worries out the door
Can’t last forever

I feel your heart beat
Closer now, I hear you breathe
Your smile is my sun

My skin once was new
I can see the moments pass
Like rings on a tree

Tears of joy I cry
You come to me. You leave me.
Tears of woe I cry

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Posted by on May 11, 2010 in Uncategorized


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